The Mildly Suicidal

Silence falls
And it's you and me once again
It's my tactic-
To turn my back

I'm disgusted by your possession over me
What if I want out?
I don't argue
You'll win anyway

So material rules again
Reality, claim my bones!
I am the mildly suicidal-
Too attached to my hatred to die

They say it doesn't matter
That it's all in my heart
Perhaps that's their survival technique
Yet, am I alone in this struggle?

I wish I was only gay
That would solve my case
I don't know myself well enough to say
That perhaps it's something deeper

Today, I woke up in the wrong body
I don't know what else to say
This is my technique
I am the mildly suicidal